Monday, 11 May 2026

Wilderness Within: A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation - Sr. Josephine Garrett CSFN and June Jameson

Wilderness Within
A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation 
June Jameson (Illustrator)
ISBN 9781646802975
eISBN 9781646802982
ASIN B0DHT7N199 

Wilderness Within: A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation - Sr. Josephine Garrett CSFN and June Jameson

During Lent in 2026 I worked through a few volumes, and two of them were from this series. They were both very different but I benefited greatly from both of them. To date it appears there are 5 offerings each for Lent and Advent in the “A Guided Lent/Advent Journal for Prayer and Meditation” series. I plan on working through all of them because both this and the other volume I did this year were excellent!

The description of this volume states:

“This Lent, allow Sr. Josephine Garrett to be your guide as you explore the interior wilderness of your heart and invite Jesus in to heal you with his love.

Have you ever wondered why Jesus went into the wilderness? Some believe it was to reveal his divinity or to restore humanity's relationship with God. In Wilderness Within, Sr. Josephine Garrett, a mental health counselor and popular speaker, reflects on the belief that Jesus went into the wilderness to rescue us--to rescue us! The Lord does not want us to view the wilderness as something that causes worry, anxiety, or fear. "What if, instead," Sr. Josephine writes, "we looked at how God has been a faithful provider in the wilderness and trusted that He will do the same for us in the wilderness journey ahead? What if we joyfully take His hand and journey into the wilderness, because when Christ enters there, 'this opposite place of the garden becomes the place of reconciliation and healing'" (Pope Benedict XVI, Jesus of Nazareth)?

In Wilderness Within, Sr. Josephine will guide you through the forty days of Lent to attend to the wilderness of your heart as a place to be explored, restored, and sent on mission by Jesus's tender love.

• Week of Ash Wednesday: Enter Lent by recognizing your ability to always begin anew in Christ.
• Week One: Open your heart to God's love, allowing yourself to reverence your heart as a gift from your Creator.
• Week Two: Reflect on the truth that we are created for relationships, and examine the relationships in your life.
• Week Three: Take an honest look at your limitations, wounds, and sin guided by a spirit of humility and repentance.
• Week Four: Begin to see how God designed your heart to be rescued by him and grow in your capacity to be healed by him.
• Week Five: Leave the wilderness of your heart so that you can go on mission--with a heart restored by Christ's love--to love your neighbor and be a good steward of the gifts and charisms given to you.
• Holy Week: Follow in Jesus's footsteps to the Cross and discover how you can love him well through each stage of the Passion and Resurrection.

Each day's content includes brief meditations, specially crafted illustrations, thought-provoking reflection questions, heartfelt prayers curated to uplift your spirit, and ample journaling space for personal revelations and insights. Whether you're journeying alone or with a group, Wilderness Within is your guide to a beautiful and renewing Lent.

Free companion videos featuring Sr. Josephine and a free downloadable leader's guide are available at avemariapress.com.”

About the author we are informed:

“Sr. Josephine Garrett, CSFN, is a sister of the Holy Family of Nazareth, a licensed counselor, host of the Hope Stories podcast, and a Catholic speaker and author.

Garrett earned a bachelor’s degree in political philosophy from the University of Dallas. Prior to entering religious life, she worked as vice president in the home loans division of Bank of America. In 2019, she earned a master’s degree in clinical mental health counseling from the Chicago School of Professional Psychology and became a nationally certified counselor licensed in Texas.

She worked as a school counselor in Tyler, Texas, and is presently serving as a counselor in private practice. Garrett is a voice for mental health on various platforms such as Formed and Hallow.

She resides in Tyler, Texas.”

About the illustrator:

“June Jameson is an independent artist who creates large oils on canvases for galleries, churches, hospitals, and private collections. Jameson has developed a unique style that blends her strong Catholic faith with her impressionist paintings.
Jameson earned her bachelor of arts degree from the University of Florida. Many of her original paintings are represented by the Sacred Art Gallery in Arizona and several of her images are available to license for liturgical use through the Diocesan Library of Art.

Jameson lives in Ocala, Florida, with her husband and nine children.

Prints of her work, including the images created for Wilderness Within, can be found at junejameson.com.”

The chapters and sections in this book are:

Introduction
How to Use This Journal
Week of Ash Wednesday: Begin Again
     Ash Wednesday: Rend Your Heart
     Thursday: Rock the Boat
     Friday: Journey into the Wilderness
     Saturday: Reverence Your Findings

First Week of Lent: A Heart Rooted in Love
     Sunday: Identify Your Roots
     Monday: Believe in Love
     Tuesday: Perceive God’s Love
     Wednesday: Abide in Joy
     Thursday: Abide Always
     Friday: Abide in Suffering and Sorrow
     Saturday: Reverence the Waters

Second Week of Lent: A Heart Made for Relationship
     Sunday: Image Your Creator
     Monday: Fertilize the Soil
     Tuesday: Delight in the Fruit
     Wednesday: Be Refined by the Fire
     Thursday: Steward the Treasure
     Friday: Embrace the Mystery
     Saturday: Reverence Love

Third Week of Lent: A Heart Wounded by Sin
     Sunday: Open the Door
     Monday: Let Us Work Redemption
     Tuesday: Go to the Root
     Wednesday: Till the Soil
     Thursday: Find the Patterns
     Friday: Stand in Truth
     Saturday: Reverence the Fire

Fourth Week of Lent: A Heart Rescued by God
     Sunday: Prepare Him Room
     Monday: Banish Idols
     Tuesday: Tend His Garden
     Wednesday: Take Captive Your Thoughts
     Thursday: Light Up the Darkness
     Friday: Make Peace with the Cross
     Saturday: Renew Your Vows

Fifth Week of Lent: A Heart Poured Out with God
     Sunday: Leave the Wilderness
     Monday: You Are a Mission
     Tuesday: He Is the Vine
     Wednesday: Love Your Neighbor
     Thursday: Be a Good Steward
     Friday: Become a Font of Mercy
     Saturday: State Your Mission

Holy Week: A Heart United with Christ
     Palm Sunday: Ascend to Jerusalem
     Monday: Be Devoted
     Tuesday: Fill the Empty Space
     Wednesday: Love Him Well
     Holy Thursday: The Hour of Love
     Good Friday: In His Flesh
     Holy Saturday: In the Heart of the Earth
     Easter Sunday: He Is Risen Indeed

Appendix: Implicit Religion Incomplete Sentences

A sample reflection is:

Ash Wednesday

Our Lenten journey . . . is a journey on which each and every day we learn to leave behind our selfishness and our being closed in on ourselves, to make room for God who opens and transforms our hearts.
Pope Benedict XVI, Final homily, February 13, 2013

Rend Your Heart

After twenty years of being Catholic, I still find myself approaching Ash Wednesday each year with some anxiety and trepidation (even as a nun!). As soon as the day arrives and I begin all my big plans for prayer, fasting, and almsgiving, I find myself immediately fearful of what feels like inevitable failure, as if the purpose of Lent is to “get it right.” In reality, I will most likely demonstrate over the next forty days what it looks like to not “get it right.” After twenty Lents, I have learned that it takes far more courage to be in a state of beginning again than it does to be in a state of getting it right. Ven. Bruno Lanteri said, “If I should fall even a thousand times a day, a thousand times with peaceful repentance I will say immediately Nunc Coepi [Now I Begin].” Bl. Mary of Jesus the Good Shepherd—the foundress of my community, Sisters of the Holy Family of Nazareth—said it this way; “Rest assured that the Lord is pleased a thousandfold more by a soul who is susceptible to many falls, but who knowing her weakness, turns to God in humility, than by another who is less prone to fall and is seemingly more perfect, but is self-confident and self-sufficient.”

On Ash Wednesday we are instructed in the reading from the prophet Joel to rend our hearts, not our garments (see Joel 2:12). Some of us have heard this time and time again, but have we really understood what the scripture is saying? Rend means “to tear.” At the outset of Lent, the first instruction from scripture tells us to tear open our hearts before the Lord; I think it’s safe to say Lent is not for the folks who seemingly have it all together. Perhaps when we make Lent about mainly checking the boxes of the “things’’ we said we would do, we have only rended our garments instead of our hearts. Maybe we can reframe these forty days from a journey toward our own perfection to instead a time to strive to have the courage to begin again, and again, again . . . well. In doing so, we can hope to make room for God, who opens (and perhaps it is through his power that this rending happens) and transforms our hearts, for he will only journey into a heart with an open door.

Reflect

Reflect on your own rended heart. If you were to rend (open) your heart before God today, as you enter Lent, what would he find there? Some questions you can ask to help clarify the movements of your heart are “What is stirring in my heart lately?” or “What is breaking my heart lately?”

What doubts or anxieties do you have about the forty days ahead? Doubts and anxieties are often attached to desires; what are the desires beneath those doubts and worries?

Pray with Romans 5:1–5.
Pray

I return to you, Lord, with my whole heart. The past is ashes, and I bring to you my tears and fasting, trusting that you are slow to anger and quick to forgive. Amen.”

I highlighted numerous passages while working through this volume. Some of them are:

“I believe Lent is not an exceptional time, but rather an exemplary time. It is a time when we enter deeply into the Paschal Mystery, which is at work in us and in the world, not only during the forty days of Lent, but all the time. In this way, Lent becomes an example of what much of the rest of our year and faith journey in general ought to look like.”

“During Lent, we are called to spiritually enter into the wilderness of our hearts with Jesus. In our Lenten observances and sacrifices, we face our temptations head-on with and in Christ because we receive the grace of seeing them more clearly. Our need for God’s grace becomes more evident precisely in our intentional efforts to sacrifice.”

“Jesus’s lowliness gives him access to the recesses of our hearts, and his gentleness empowers him to conquer the wilderness without overwhelming us.”

“As we embark on this journey together, we have a unique opportunity set before us to journey with Jesus to the Wilderness Within and to follow him to Calvary where we learn to pour ourselves out for mission, in union with Christ. Through the meditations, prayers, scriptures, mental-health tools, and real-life stories in this journal, you will be invited to slow down, to reflect, to prepare, and to create space for daily encounters with Jesus.”

““Rest assured that the Lord is pleased a thousandfold more by a soul who is susceptible to many falls, but who knowing her weakness, turns to God in humility, than by another who is less prone to fall and is seemingly more perfect, but is self-confident and self-sufficient.””

“Maybe we can reframe these forty days from a journey toward our own perfection to instead a time to strive to have the courage to begin again, and again, again . . . well. In doing so, we can hope to make room for God, who opens (and perhaps it is through his power that this rending happens) and transforms our hearts, for he will only journey into a heart with an open door.”

“A few Ash Wednesdays ago, I was sitting at my desk preparing a guidance-counseling lesson for fifth graders and wondering how to connect our focus on virtuous relationships to the season of Lent. I quickly realized that all Lenten practices (whether prayer, fasting, or almsgiving) ultimately impact some aspect of relationship, hopefully for the better, whether it’s relationship with myself, others, or God.”

“To fast from negative thoughts about yourself, replacing those thoughts with brief prayers. To fast from uncharitable thoughts and gossip about others and strive to presume good will. To regularly spend more time with your family in a common area of your home, or to plan to eat a meal together at the table (so many families no longer practice this simple, yet profound routine that establishes powerful bonds).”

“What was it like to think of making adjustments to plans you have already discerned for Lent? Sometimes we are very set on doing Lent the way we discerned. What if God would like to evolve that as Lent progresses? Does he have permission?”

“Yet our Lenten plans are not what is being done for Lent. Rather, those commitments help us to receive what Jesus desires to do in us this Lent. It is God who accomplishes Lent in us.”

“I’ve learned that the more reverence we have for ourselves, the more likely we are to take time to slow down, find silence, and be still.”

“Here is the fact of the matter: Who God is says a lot about who I am and who you are. So if God is love, what does that mean about you, and the hidden center of your being, your heart?”

“To no credit of our own, but through the merits of our Lord Jesus Christ, when God the Father looks at each of us, he sees Jesus. He not only sees Jesus but also his own life, his own image, which we cannot disfigure.”

“The reason our belief and not our individual works warrants eternal life is because being receptive and open to the graces to believe is far more intimate than performing the external actions that give the appearance of belief.”

“Rather, our need for him is what draws him close and makes him attracted to us—much like how a gardener sets out into the garden that she loves. She of course admires what is going well in her garden, but above all she’s there to lovingly tend.” 

“We must also reflect on how we are giving love and how we are receiving others as gift. How are we helping others to comprehend their great dignity and worth? For it is not being loved alone that makes us understand exactly who we are and what we were made for; this is fully known in giving love, in self-donation.”

“I pray today that you can consider on a deep personal level what he has done for you and what he has done for the world. Today his heart is pierced open, and it will never close again. The all-powerful God, who could have taken any approach to your salvation, chose to save you through death, an open heart, and a throne of mercy inside of it.”

“Today, yes, we need to go about as if Jesus is dead; he is, in the flesh. But I invite you to join the Sisters who seek him in the hidden repose, hidden in the depths of the earth, alive and at work, making the heart of the earth fruitful with his loving sacrifice.”

“Feel gratitude for all that the Lord has done, and ask God to show you how you are called to, in all things, love and serve the Divine Majesty, who continues to work to make your wilderness within a resurrection garden with God’s love enthroned.””

I hope that sample reflection and those quotes give you a feel for this volume. The supplemental weekly videos and other resources on the Ave Maria Site really do make this a self-guided retreat. You can work through it personally, as a family or in a small group. The illustrations are great for meditation. Sr. Josephine Garrett CSFN is very open and transparent, she uses examples from her life, life in her community and from her ministry. It is deeply moving.

The material is easy to engage with and written and a very compelling manner. Anyone with a secondary school education could easily worth through this volume. But the working through it might not be easy. It will help you go deeper over the days of Lent. But it will be work. It will challenge readers to be more open and honest with them and with God. It will encourage us to open our hearts, our hurts, our wounds and turn to God for healing and restoration. The two I read this Lent are so good, I am debating just picking another to work through as a guided retreat. I am not sure I can wait for Advent for another an experience like this.

This volume was so good I plan on picking up all of them in the series and hope to work through them over the next few Lents and Advents.

An amazing volume I can easily recommend.  

Note: This book is part of a series of reviews: 2026 Catholic Reading Plan! For all Lent resource reviews click here.

A Guided Journal from Ave Maria Press:
A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation:
Made for Heaven - Fr. Agustino Torres CFR 
Return - Fr. John Burns 
Witness - Fr. Patrick Mary Briscoe OP

A Guided Advent Journal for Prayer and Meditation:
Adore - Fr. John Burns
Behold - Miriam James Heidland SOLT 
Encountering Emmanuel - Heather Khym
Illuminate - Fr. John Nepil
Prepare Your Heart - Fr. Agustino Torres CFR

A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation Series from Ave Maria Press


Sunday, 10 May 2026

Closing Accounts - E. P. Cowley

Closing Accounts
E. P. Cowley
Smashwords
eISBN 9780994970909
2015

Closing Accounts - E. P. Cowley

Every so often you read something that truly helps you see the world in a new way. It causes a paradigm shift of an unveiling. It is like scales falling from your eyes. That has happened to me a few times over the last 30ish years. Reading C.S. Lewis’s Screwtape and Space Series, Jacob the Baker by Noah ben Shea, Piercing the Darkness by Frank E. Petretti, Joshua by Joseph F. Girzone, The Singer by Calvin Miller … This was one of those books. I started keeping track of my reading in October of 1995, since 1996 I have averaged 211 books per year, and since 2016 I am averaging over 400 books per year. And this is one of the best pieces of fiction I have read. And it is one of those life changing books.

I absolutely loved Tales From Wakken Wood, when I read it earlier this year. And while doing research for it, I discovered this volume. I found mention to it on 2 blog posts from a decade ago. And through some internet sleuthing, the way back machine and some luck was able to obtain a copy of it. I think it is a tragedy that this volume is not available, and dearly hope the good people at Ignatius who published Wakken give it a chance to be back in print. 

The description of this volume originally was:

“When a young artist paints the Mayor’s portrait, he hangs it in City Hall. The trouble is that this is no ordinary painting. Everyone sees something different and whose account is true? The painting launches a train of strange events in a world that teeters on the edge of apocalypse. The story is told in four linked accounts woven together, ending at the same moment in time.” 

A longer description states:

“Fifteen-year old Letty has painted the Mayor's portrait. He hangs it in City Hall for all the world to see, but the trouble is that this is no ordinary painting. Everyone sees something different and whose account is true? But Letty's painting is only one strange occurrence in a world that teeters on the edge of apocalypse.

Michael, the reluctant soldier, is forced to join the General's rag-tag army. Assigned to the regiment in the capitol city, he finds his way into a company of mysterious people who are working to rescue the city's orphans from destitution. A man named Joe is the leader of this strange crew and Michael learns to trust him, even in the abyss called Belltown.

Thaddaeus, the forgotten artist, stirs up the crowd of regulars at The Tower Inn with his disturbing paintings. Is he mad? Or is he a prophet? Marching to the beat of his own interior music, he never asks what the world thinks. He is too busy straining after an elusive tune, following wherever it might lead.

Mayor Jared Hobic is happily corrupt: sucking up to the General, cheating on his wife, slithering like a snake into his position of power and influence. Everything is going his way until a young girl paints his portrait. Now he's plagued by a knocking sound. Is it in his head? Is he losing his mind? And who is this mysterious man named Joe who eludes his grasp? Mayor Hobic is certainly beginning to lose his grip on his carefully constructed life.

The story is told in four linked accounts woven together and ending at the same moment in time. Threaded throughout the tales are images of a strange man named Joe, the paintings of Letty; and the bread lady, mysterious and serene, who is always at her table in the market square.”
 
At the bottom of the book page we are informed:

“An illustrated map for Closing Accounts is available on the author's blogsite: The Fiction of EP Cowley.

Check out Tales From Wakken Wood, Cowley's current project.

The author lives in Vancouver, B.C.”
 
The chapters and section in this volume are:

Letty Begins
Michael’s Sketch
The Painter’s Exposition
Extracts From The Book Of Tales
     The Poor Man and His Treasure
     The Ungrateful Guests
     The Girl Who Was Robbed
     A Tale of Two Sons
Quietus
Epilogue

This book hit me light a freight train. Normally I would read through a volume this size in an afternoon or evening. It took me most of Holy Week to get through it. Part of me did not want to stop reading, and another part knew I needed to process. Each of the first three sections; Letty’s, Michael’s, and the Painters’ rocked me. I went back and read each section after reading it, and read it a second time. Then the four stories from the Book of Tales, are retellings of parables in a modern light. They reminded me a lot of Joshua’s teaches by Girzone or the lessons of Jacob the Baker. Quintus was not an easy read, written as a journal, from the Mayor it ebbs and flows. It is by far the longest section both in length and in amount of time covered. It is the most in depth. 

In the story we encounter a phrase:

“Beneath, above, behind, before, within, beside, to win, restore.”

It hit me the first time we encountered it and as the painter latched on to it, In some ways it became his breathing Jesus prayer. But as the story progressed we find out it is the refrain to a song and over time we learn some versus, What I have built and I could easily be wrong is:

Beneath, above, behind, before
Within, beside, to win, restore.
I bind unto myself today
The power in the starlit space
The sun’s life-giving lucid rays
The whiteness of the evening moon,
The flashing of the lightning free
The whirling wind’s tumultuous shocks
The steadfast earth
The deep salt sea
Swirling ‘round the ancient rocks.

Beneath, above, behind, before
Within, beside, to win, restore.

I bind unto myself today
A refuge under mighty wings
A fortress in the time of storm
A shield from terror in the night
A clashing sword of victory
A strong right arm to rescue all
An eye that sees
An ear that hears
Bestowing strength to those who call.

Beneath, above, behind, before
Within, beside, to win, restore.

I bind unto myself this night
A refuge under mighty wings
A fortress in the time of storm
A shield from terror in the dark.

Beneath, above, behind, before
Within, beside, to win, restore.

I bind unto myself this night
The flashing of the lightning free
The whirling wind’s tumultuous shocks
The steadfast earth
The deep salt sea . . .

Beneath, above, behind, before
Within, beside, to win, restore.

It does not appear to have name in the story but reminded me so much of Saint Patrick’s Brestplate, especially the version in Madeleine L’Engle’s A Wrinkle in Time, that I have taken to calling it the Closing Accounts Breastplate. I have started praying this each evening, it marks the third prayer from a fictional novel I try and pray daily. The first is as mentioned St Patrick’s Rune, the second is A Hunter’s Prayer, and now this one. And every time we encountered a piece of it as I read I copied it out and added it to my prayer notebook. 

I talked with 2 of my teen children while reading this, in fact they would tell you I could not stop talking about it. It is a volume I would love for them to read and be able to share with friends. 

This is an excellent read, I could easily recommend it for older teens, Young Adults and Adults. This is way better than a lot of fiction I read in my teen years. It is an excellent work that draws readers in quickly and it really keeps their attention. It is one of those out-of-print volumes I track down and read, that I desperately wish was still available. I know several people I would recommend it to immediately. A fantastic read I can easily recommend, and I hope there will be many more from Cowley’s masterful pen. 

Closing Accounts - E.P. Cowley - Map

Note: This book is part of a series of reviews: 2026 Catholic Reading Plan!  

Books by E.P. Cowley:

Tales From Wakken Wood - E. P. Cowley

Closing Accounts - E. P. Cowley

Saturday, 9 May 2026

Restore A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation - Miriam James Heidland SOLT and Valerie Delgado

Restore: 
A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation 
Valerie Delgado (Illustrator)
ISBN 9781646801480
eISBN 9781646801497
ASIN B09P9QY56Q

Restore A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation - Miriam James Heidland SOLT and Valerie Delgado

During Lent in 2026 I worked through a few volumes, and two of them were from this series. They were both very different but I benefited greatly from both of them. To date it appears there are 5 offerings each for Lent and Advent in the “A Guided Lent/Advent Journal for Prayer and Meditation” series. I plan on working through all of them because both this and the other volume I did this year were excellent!

The description of this volume states:

“Follow the Lord into the depths of your heart this Lent and you will never be the same.

Take a healing journey with Sr. Miriam James Heidland, SOLT, as she helps you turn away from what wounds you and toward God who heals you and makes you whole.
In this beautiful guided journal for prayer and meditation, Sr. Miriam invites you to meet the tenderness of God’s mercy, the power of his love, and the restoration of your heart and life as you practice prayer, fasting, and almsgiving.

Restore features stunning original art by Valerie Delgado of Pax.Valerie along with daily meditations on a passage from scripture, reflection questions, guided prayer, and space for journaling and notetaking.

Throughout Lent, you’ll move through four different phases of healing, focusing on traditional Lenten practices:

 1. Prayer is the means of healing our relationship with God.
  2. Fasting disciplines us in healing our relationship with ourselves.
   3. Almsgiving leads us to healing our relationships with others.
    4. Sacrifice shows us the path to heaven and union with God.

If you enter into Lent with Christ, your heart will see more clearly, be pierced more easily, love more strongly, and serve more passionately. Jesus will be etched into the crevasses of your being.

Restore is perfect for both individual and group use. Free companion videos and a downloadable leader’s guide are available at avemariapress.com.”

About the author we are informed:

“Sr. Miriam James Heidland, SOLT, is a popular Catholic speaker, cohost of the Abiding Together podcast, and the author of the bestselling book Loved as I Am.

A former Division I athlete who had a radical conversion and joined the Society of Our Lady of the Most Holy Trinity in 1998, Heidland has shared her story on EWTN’s The Journey Home, at numerous SEEK and Steubenville conferences, and at the USCCB’s Convocation of Catholic Leaders.

In addition to speaking, Heidland has served in parish ministry and as the director of novices for her SOLT community. She also has served as an assistant to both her provincial and general superiors.

Heidland earned a master’s degree in theology from the Augustine Institute and speaks extensively on the topics of conversion, authentic love, forgiveness, and healing.”

About the illustrator:

“Valerie Delgado is a Catholic painter, a digital artist, and the owner of Pax. Beloved. She illustrated the books Prepare Your Heart by Fr. Agustino Torres, CFR; Adore by Fr. John Burns; Restore by Sr. Miriam James Heidland, SOLT; and ABC Get to Know the Saints with Me by Caroline Perkins.”

The chapters and sections in this book are:

Week of Ash Wednesday
First Week of Lent: The Desert
Second Week of Lent: Freedom of Heart
Third Week of Lent: The Roots of Sin
Fourth Week of Lent: The Healing Balm of Almsgiving
Fifth Week of Lent: The Journey of Forgiveness
Holy Week, the Week of All Weeks

A sample reflection is:

Ash Wednesday
But you are merciful to all, for you can do all things, and you overlook men’s sins, that they may repent. . . . You spare all things, for they are yours, O Lord who love the living.
Wisdom 11:23, 26

The Inner Room
Here we begin, dear friends. Ash Wednesday. Our foreheads are marked with the blackness of death while the words “Repent and believe in the gospel” or “Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return” are spoken over us. Every single person, no matter their age or state in life, receives the same greeting, for we all are called to repent, believe, and remember. All things pass away and only the eternal remains.

We receive glimpses of this reality throughout our lives, but today we ponder it specifically as the door through which we follow Jesus out into the desert. The Catechism states that “interior repentance is a radical reorientation of our whole life, a return, a conversion to God with all our heart, an end of sin, a turning away from evil, with repugnance toward the evil actions we have committed” (CCC 1431). We must turn away from what wounds us, destroys us, and makes us sick and turn toward God who heals us, saves us, and makes us whole.

While other people may know certain things about us, and we may know ourselves to varying degrees, only the Lord knows us fully. He alone sees us in our fullness and wholeness and loves us completely. This is why we must go into the “inner room” with him, into the hidden place, so all can be revealed.

He is inviting us into an encounter with him, in the depths of our hearts, for that is where true transformation takes place.

Reflect
Where are you in your heart and life right now? What is Jesus wanting to heal in you as you pray, fast, and give alms this Lent?
Take a few minutes to write about this in your journal.

Pray
Jesus, help me as i begin this journey with you. Give me an open heart, a willing spirit, and the courage to keep going, no matter what. Amen.”

I highlighted numerous passages while working through this volume. Some of them are:

“The season of Lent stirs many things in our hearts. Some people love it, some people dislike it, and all of us know that we are supposed to somehow be transformed through it all. We often give up chocolate, alcohol, or meat. We try to practice mortification and remember that we are only pilgrims on this earth and that all things pass away. And while all these things are inherently good and important, I often wonder what is being engaged at the deeper level of our hearts.”

“Perhaps by now you have noticed some areas of your life that need attention this Lent. When you look at the traditional Lenten disciplines of prayer, fasting, and almsgiving, you may have chosen a few practices for each discipline that will help bring you into deeper freedom during this season.”

“As sin scatters and fragments, love brings us into communion and wholeness.”

“He is calling us into union with him in the heart. This is why we must allow the Lord to prompt our actions with his inspiration and further them with his help. We are not making the journey of Lent on our own or from our own will. We are being led by the Lord as the Holy Spirit led Jesus out into the desert.”

“This is a journey about your heart with Jesus and your relationship with him. Each person’s relationship with Christ is unique and unrepeatable. As God loves each of us in a way he loves no other person, so too we love God in a way that no one else loves God.”

“Prayer heals our relationship with God. Where we are shattered by sin and disorder, prayer draws us into the heart of God.”

“Or more succinctly, the heart of God enters into our misery. God enters into the true misery of our sin, sorrow, and suffering, and he saves us, restores us, and redeems us.”

“The beautiful thing about the desert, though, is that it lays all things bare and Christ goes before us. We do not go into the desert alone, and the Lord will not reveal anything to us that he does not also wish to attend to and heal.”

“A covenant says, “I love you. I will never leave you. I will never forsake you. I am not going anywhere. I am here for you. No matter what happens, I will not reject you. I love you as you are, and I desire your ultimate good. I give myself to you completely and I receive you completely. You do not have to hide anything. You do not have to pretend. You can bring anything to me and I will be with you in it, bear it with you, and speak the truth to you about it in love.” This is how God loves us. This is the freedom and responsibility of love.”

“Prayer is not mere words; prayer is life itself. This is why we pray without ceasing.”

“How might you give the Lord permission to come into any place of your life and bring you into wholeness and into relationship with himself?”

“The earth that we live upon is not neutral territory. We live on not a cruise ship but a battlefield. And we know this battle through and through, as well as the ache for communion in eternal love.”

““First, our wounds are not arbitrary, they are not random. Satan is like a sniper. He intuits with his angelic intellect the destiny of every human person and he shoots his deadly arrows into the place that will do the most damage in order to thwart the flourishing of the person and God’s plan for their life. Satan succeeds when he can convince us to hate God, hate ourselves, and hate others for the wounds we bear.”

““Suffering that is not transformed is transmitted.” Every experience of suffering we have had that has not yet been redeemed and transformed by the love of Christ is transmitted to those around us. The suffering we have experienced does not just disappear; it is most often buried alive. And that pain buried alive continues to afflict us and those around us.”

“The priest who mentored me for many years before and after I entered religious life was very fond of offering the adage that when we fast from one thing, we need to feast on something else. This is not compensating for what we are aching for but offering our heart, mind, body, and soul the true food that it needs.”

“As Adam and Eve hid in the garden, so do we. In light of our story and where we hurt and how we try to avoid suffering, our sin and broken ways of living follow a pattern.”

““Behind every disordered desire is a good and holy desire, an unmet need, an unhealed wound, and a hidden pattern of sin.””

“Maybe we feel that no one in our life listens to us or really hears our heart and takes us seriously with attentiveness and love. Maybe we don’t feel as though we have a safe place to bring our sorrows, and we have had to bury our anger our entire life. Maybe we have wounds of rejection, abandonment, shame, fear, powerlessness, hopelessness, or confusion. These unhealed wounds and unacknowledged needs (that often tie back to our childhoods with long histories and patterns) continue to play out over and over again in our lives. Collectively they are the proverbial “iceberg under the water” that drives so much of our painful behavior.”

“Jesus continually comes to us where we are ill and in need and asks us if we want to be well. As we recall our Lenten journey thus far, we know that if we are honest, we all have places in our lives where we are not well, where we are out of communion and experiencing isolation, and where we need healing. And as we discover, it is through communion that healing gushes forth.”

“And yet this is often the very thing we want the most—to be seen, received, and loved. Jesus is truly present to us and receives us.”

“Lord, give me a generous and open heart. May my love for you grow more deeply into a fragrant, life-giving aroma that fills the world around me.”

“This life is not the end. This life is not all there is. The best things on earth are only a small foreshadowing of the beauty of heaven.”

I hope that sample reflection and those quotes give you a feel for this volume. The supplemental weekly videos and other resources on the Ave Maria Site really do make this a self-guided retreat. You can work through it personally, as a family or in a small group. The illustrations are great for meditation. 

The material is easy to engage with and written and a very compelling manner. Anyone with a secondary school education could easily worth through this volume. But the working through it might not be easy. It will help you go deeper over the days of Lent. But it will be work. It will challenge readers to be more open and honest with them and with God. It will encourage us to open our hearts, our hurts, our wounds and turn to God for healing and restoration. 

This volume was so good I plan on picking up all of them in the series and hope to work through them over the next few Lents and Advents.

An amazing volume I can easily recommend. 

Note: This book is part of a series of reviews: 2026 Catholic Reading Plan! For all Lent resource reviews click here.

A Guided Journal from Ave Maria Press:
A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation:
Made for Heaven - Fr. Agustino Torres CFR 
Return - Fr. John Burns 
Witness - Fr. Patrick Mary Briscoe OP

A Guided Advent Journal for Prayer and Meditation:
Adore - Fr. John Burns
Behold - Miriam James Heidland SOLT 
Encountering Emmanuel - Heather Khym
Illuminate - Fr. John Nepil
Prepare Your Heart - Fr. Agustino Torres CFR

A Guided Lent Journal for Prayer and Meditation Series from Ave Maria Press


Friday, 8 May 2026

Why Suffer - Mary Ann Budnik - Scepter Booklet 121

Why Suffer?
Scepter Booklet 121
Mary Ann Budnik
ASIN B004ASNDMU

Why Suffer - Mary Ann Budnik - Scepter Booklet 121 New Cover

I first read a copy of this while on retreat twenty years ago in 2006. I read an old copy of the Scepter Booklet edition of it. Many of which are now available for free on the Scepter site. In 2026 a quote from the book was a social media post from Scepter, it really struck me. 

“Much suffering is caused by what we do and what we fail to do.”

It struck me so much I shared it on social media and had numerous interactions. When I checked I saw when I read it but back then I only reviewed stuff I tried to publish in papers and magazines. Now I try and review everything I read. So I decided to read it again, this review grew out of that second reading. 

The Scepter Booklet edition description is:

“"My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" How often do these words of Scripture come to mind when sorrow and suffering strike? A lost job, a sick child, death in the family, financial setbacks, a problem marriage, or chronic illness can find us turning to God with tears in our eyes and anguish in our hearts. Many of us were taught as children that everything that happens to us has a divine purpose, including pain and suffering. But it often is hard to see God's love and providence in pain.”

One online description of a different edition of this book is:

“Suffering has never been a popular topic. In fact, most of us find it downright distasteful, probably because suffering dogs our footsteps as we progress through life. Yet, suffering has its purpose. It matures us emotionally and spiritually, while it also plays a part in helping us to develop the various virtues.”

The chapters in the booklet are:

Introduction
Benefits of Suffering
Suffering as a Teacher
We Suffer With Christ
The Scandal of the Cross
 “A Bad Night in a Bad Inn”
Lessons to be Learned

I highlighted a few passages while working through this booklet, some of them are:

“Many of us were taught as children that everything that happens to us has a divine purpose, including pain and suffering. But it often is hard to see God's love and providence in pain!”

“Today, as in the days before Christ, Satan is allowed to test us. Some of the saints have experienced such testing in a special way. St. Francis of Paola has told us: "The devil has a consuming hatred against the servants of Christ. The malignant one, seeing that he cannot steal their souls, vents his most terrible wrath on them, forcing them to resist every type of suffering."”

“A third cause of suffering is our own nature—our weakness and failings such as pride, selfishness, lack of self-control--in short, our lack of virtue. Much suffering is caused by what we do and what we fail to do. The gossip that we never should have passed on can destroy our peace of mind and the lives of others. Lack of self-control in regard to food, drink, and drugs has destroyed many lives and families.”

“But growing in virtue is not easy. Some self-discipline is needed, and the development of good habits to start driving out the bad ones. Some important helps are frequent or daily Mass and Communion, frequent confession, and spiritual direction. But it is a puzzling fact that few people want to alleviate their sufferings by growing in virtue. They almost seem content with their misery.”

“Another cause of suffering is our own lack of mortification. Our frail natures resist anything that looks like penance.”

“"That piece of cake looks so good.... I'll skip dessert tomorrow instead of tonight." But mañana never comes! It's easier to say "yes" than "no" to a second drink at a cocktail party.”

“There are so many excuses why we shouldn't go to Mass, or take time for mental prayer, or do that work of charity. Yet without a spirit of mortification, we cannot grow spiritually. So God comes to our rescue and imposes a mortification on us in the form of some cross or tribulation.”

“Only in retrospect can we ordinarily see the benefits or purpose of our suffering. It's like a painting. When we are too close to the canvas we see only splotches of color here and there, but when we view it from the proper distance we can see the beauty of the work as a whole. So with our sufferings. While we won't be able to see the entire picture until eternity, we can see meaningful bits and pieces once the suffering has passed.”

“Suffering should strengthen our love of God and give us a clearer vision of Christ's message in the Gospels. By taking up our cross we become Christlike and able to bring others to him.”

“The crosses that add color to our lives are never selected by us. They are given to us by God for a specific reason. God's ways often are an unexpected mystery.”

“As we carry our burdens, there are times when we will stumble. Remember that Christ also stumbled, not once but three times, on his way to Calvary. And so will we. The secret of a successful Christian struggle is not in the failures, but in the struggle to begin again and again every day, and many times during each day.”

“If you find yourself being bitter and gloomy, instead of being at peace with yourself, maybe your condition is a result of you not using frequent confession, and frequent or daily Mass, to grow in love of God. We must turn to prayer, confession, and the Mass to find comfort in adversity. Turn also to Mary, cause of our Joy, to learn docility and acceptance.”

I hope those quotes give you a feel for this booklet. It is an excellent little volume even with a second reading almost twenty years after the first. A number of years ago I wanted to track down all the old Scepter Booklets and read them. I did not plan on reviewing them, just reading them because all of them I had read were great. I believe there were originally over 200 volumes in the series. Currently 54 are available for free. And I have over 100 in various digital editions. 

I can easily recommend this specific Scepter Booklet and all of them from the series I have read!

Note: This book is part of a series of reviews: 2026 Catholic Reading PlanFor reviews of other books and booklets from Scepter click here

Books by Mary Ann Budnik:
A New Look At The Works of Mercy
Exam of Conscience 
Game Plans: A Plan for Holiness
Looking for peace? Try confession!
Raise Happy Children...Raise Them Saints!
Raise Happy Children...Teach Them Joy!
Raise Happy Children...Teach Them Virtues!
Raise Happy Children...Through a Happier Marriage
You Can Become A Saint Facilitators Guide
You Can Become A Saint Workbook
You Can Become a Saint!

Scepter Booklets:
5 Steps to a Financially Healthy Marriage - Joseph D. Salem
A New Beginning - Walter Macken
A Plan of Life - Josemaria Escriva
A Profile of St Thomas More - M. Alvarez
A Treasury of Prayers - James W Albrecht
Bright and Cheerful Homes - James Urteaga
Catholic Teachings on Sex - Daryl Glick
Celibacy, Personality and the Gift of Self - John B Torello
Censorship - Cormac Burke
Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith - Declaration on Certain Questions of Sexual Ethics
Devotion to St. Joseph - F Delclaux
Diary of a City Priest - George William Rutler
Dispositions for Faith - John Henry Newman
Divine Ways on Earth - Cardinal Sergio Pignedoli
Francis Luna - How to Pray
Freedom From What For What - Cormac Burke
Frequent Confession - S Feirgle
How to Pray – Rev. Francis Luna
In Gods House - Paul Nitta
Increase and Multiply - J. A. Garcia-Prieto and J. L. Pastor
Is Purity Possible - JL Soria
Legacy A Story of Generosity - James B Stenson
Life of Faith - Josemaria Escriva
Living in God’s Presence - Francis Luna
Making the Most of Confession - Francis Luna
Marriage in Crisis - Cormac Burke
Montserrat Grases - Mercedes Eguibar
Norms of Piety - JM Muntadas
Novena to St. Josemaria Escriva for Work
Novena to the Immaculate Conception - St Josemaria Escriva
On the Encyclical “The Splendor of the Truth” - Russell Shaw
Order - Joseph L Soria
Parents, Children and The Rules of Life - Cormac Burke
Popular Devotions and Theology - JJ Espinosa
Priests for the New Millennium - John C McCloskey
Reinventing Dad - Denis Helming
Sanctifying Ordinary Work - Andrew Byrne
Scepter Christmas Carols
Seeking Christ in Reading - Rev Eugene Boylan
Sir Thomas More The Making of a Saint - Thomas J. McGovern
Sowing Abundant Doctrine - Joseph A. Vidal
The Angels - Cardinal John Wright
The Apostle Who Couldn't Believe - George Chevrot
The Ark and the Dove - Joseph W. McPherson
The Christian in the World - Russell Shaw
The Donkey at the Waterwheel - Malcolm Kennedy
The Galileo Affair - George Sim Johnston
The Gospel Truth - Michael Giesler
The Laity’s Role in Today’s Church - John Paul II's Christifideles Laici 
The Limits of Dissent - John Myers
The Priest and His Image - Alvaro del Portillo
The Reasonableness of Christianity - Peter Kreeft
To Make a Good Retreat - David Chandler
When God Calls - Rev. Federico Suarez
Winning Converts  - John  McCloskey
With All Your Mind - Rev. Federico Suarez
Women’s Liberation and Feminism - Jutta Burggraf
Work as Fufillment in the thought of John Paul II - John F Cloverdale

The Original List of Scepter Booklets:
001 Loyalty to the Church 
002 Sowing Abundant Doctrine 
003 Time is a Treasure 
004 "Increase and Multiply" 
006 Human Virtues
007 Bright and Cheerful Homes 
008 Freedom From What? For What ? 
009 Christ's Presence in Christians 
010 Mother of God, Our Mother 
011 Supernatural Aim of the Church 
012 That All may be Saved
014 The Angels 016 A Priest Forever 
017 Marriage, Christian Vocation 
018 With All Your Mind
019 Dispositions for Faith 
020/021 A New Beginning 
022 Sanctifying Ordinary Work 
024 Is Purity Possible 
025 Life of Prayer
026 Ascension of Our Lord 
027 The Religion of the Pharisee 
028 To Jesus Through Mary 
029 The New Barbarism
030 Passionately Loving the World 
032 Montserrat Grases
033 The Great Unknown
034 Love of God and Love of Neighbor 
035 Popular Devotions and Theology 
036 Towards Holiness
037 "Things New and Old"
038 Christ Triumphs Through Humility 
039 Judge Among Men
040 Frequent Confession 
041 Divine Ways on Earth: 
042 interior Struggle
044 The Eucharist: Mystery of Faith and Love 
048 Living in God's Presence
049 Marriage in Crisis 
050 The Priest and His Image 
051 Freedom and the Church 
052 Freedom A Gift of God
053 Censorship 
054 Christ the King 
055 Humanae Vitae 
056 With the Strength of Love 
057 Devotion to St. Joseph 
058 The Christian Vocation 
060 Woman Today
063 The Way of the Cross
064 Surrender to God 
066 Conscience and Truth 
069 Will You Also Go Away?
070 Twenty Questions to Msgr. Escriva
071 Have You Received the Spirit?
072 The Christian's Hope
073 Marxism and Christianity
074 The Apostle Who Couldn't Believe
075 God's Work 
076 Heaven 
080 Conversion of the Children of God
081 Full of Grace
082 St. Thomas More: A Profile 
083 Justice Alone is Not Enough 
085 "Your Sins Are Forgiven You" 
087 Here and Now
088 In the Footsteps of Christ
089 Before and After Holy Mass
090 The Greatness of Ordinary Life 
091 The Communion of Saints 092 The Blessed Trinity
093/094 Ideals in Youth
095 How to Understand the Bible
096 How the Bible Has Come to Us 
098 What is the Church For?
099 Msgr. Escriva De Belaguer: His Love for the Church
100 Parents Children and the Rules of Life 
101 Before God and Men
103 On the Feast of Corpus Christi 
104 Fatima and Its Pilgrims
105 Authority Faith, and The Individual 
106 Letter to Priests
107 Growing in Parenthood 
109 Detachment
111 Population and Development
112 Reaching and Teaching Your Children 
113 Strangers and Exiles
114 Woman Today: Her Role in the Family 
115 Christ's Death Is The Christian's Life 
116 The Need for Penance
117 Our lady's Place in Your Life 
118 Commentaries on the Holy Mass 
119/120 Letter on the Holy Eucharist 
123 Man Essential Part 1 
124 Man Essential Part 2 
125 Sir Thomas More: The Making Of A Saint 
126 The Ventures of Faith
127 The Mystical Number Three 
128 The Ark and the Dove 
129 Come Holy Spirit
131/132 Family, Become What You Are 
133 Friendship Of Christ
134 Freedom to Love 
136 Conscience and Authority 
137 Seeking God in the World 
138 Priesthood of Today and Tomorrow 
139 A Year of Jubilee
140 Evolution
141 The Black Madonna 
142 Christ in his Church 
143 Meeting the Press 
144 Will Being Good Make Me Happy? 
145/146 Letters to a College Student 
147 A Game Plan For The Christian
148 Catholic Understanding of Marital Intimacy 
150 Process Theology and Secularization
151 Opus Dei & Its Critics 
152 Reading: Learning to Choose 
153 Liberation Theology 
154 Joys & Sorrows St. Joseph 
155 Alive to God
156 Keeping God in the Closet 
157 Freedom and Obedience 
158 With Respect to Sex 
159 The Individuality of the Soul 
160 Work and the Spiritual Life 
161 Women at Work
162 20 Questions to Mgr. Alvaro del Portillo 
163 Go For It!
164 Speaking from the Heart 
166 Talking About God
167 The Intelligence in the Service of Christ the King 
168 Penance
169 Law and Morality 
170 Sex & Education 
171 The Romance of Orthodoxy 
172 Marriage And The Priesthood 
173 In Her Will I Dwell
178 The Gospel Truth 
179 To Make a Good Retreat 
180 Contraception
181/182 Sucessful Fathers
183 The Laity's Role in today's Church 
184 Spiritual Direction
187 Reasonableness of Christianity 
190 The Christian in the World 
191 Seven Words From The Cross 
192 The Beatification of Msgr. Escriva 
194 Mass: The Hidden Treasure 
197 Evangelization in the U.S. 
199/200 Order
201 The Galileo Affair
204 Reinventing Dad


Seeking Christ in Reading - Rev. Eugene Boylan

The Donkey at the Waterwheel - Malcolm M. Kennedy - The Lay Spirituality of St. Josemaría Escrivá

Norms of Piety - J.M. Muntadas - A Plan for Everyday Living

Why Suffer - Mary Ann Budnik - Scepter Booklet 121

Thursday, 7 May 2026

Advice on Dyslexia An Article

An Article Advice on Dyslexia

Advice on Dyslexia An Article Book Reviews and More

This might end up being a long and rambling article. It grew out of a request from an author for info to help his granddaughter who had just been diagnosed. Please feel free to share with any family and friends as needed. 

First this is my story: Confessions of a Bibliophile #5 - How I Became a Bibliophile, From Dyslexic to Addict. I have also written about How I Read So Much, now. In summary I failed grade one, was tested and they did not find it, and then repeated grade 1. In grade 2 I was still really struggling. The teacher pushed for me to be retested and it was discovered. This was in the mid-seventies. I was lucky in that I lived in a University town and had the same clinic and same doctor do my testing from 1976 to when I started university in 1988.
 
The big change for me was a private summer school I went to, 8 hours a day for my whole summer break. I did reading both mornings and afternoons and my next brother down did reading in the mornings and math in the afternoons. Once I learned to read it was whole worlds I never knew existed and I have been addicted since. 
 
My tips for where to start with supporting someone diagnosed with dyslexia. For dyslexia is a genre of diseases, it its much like having the flu, the symptoms and what helps could vary greatly from person to person. When I was in school what is today dyscalculia was often part of dyslexia and dyslexia treatment. 
 
The first place I would start would be a vision assessment with a developmental optometrist. For example Vue3, which we used for our son for eye tracking issues.  Sometimes other vision issues are misdiagnosed as dyslexia. But a through process here will help any other steps whether it is dyslexia or not.
 
Second I would test reading strips, There are different styles and colour. You want to test isolating the sentence being read and highlighting it. Different people work better with different colours. I do better with blues and purples. My son was yellows and reds. 
 
Third, combine audio with reading. I often use adaptive technology to listen to books, or listen while reading. Sometimes I have it reading from one device and mike highlights and notes on a second. 
 
This one is not specific to dyslexia but will help develop other skills and make the overall process learning. To be up front my wife works there, and all three of our children have gone there. Breakthroughs in Learning & Careers. Their therapy can be done remotely and some of the success stories on the website are amazing. Including the owners, as it was founded as his mother needed a way to help him and his brother. 
 
A book I have heard great things about is The Dyslexic Advantage by Brock L Eide. Another is Ben Foss The Dyslexia Empowerment Plan. I have not read either of these but heard good things. I have read and reviewed this one, living lexi': a walk in the life of a dyslexic by Shelley Trammell. 
 
My main advice would be to try anything you hear about, keep what works, and drop what doesn’t. And advocate, advocate, advocate it was advocates who got me going on a new path, all the way back to that teacher in grade 2. Advocate for assistance in school. By high school I had exams in a separate room, with 1.5 time. I also had it in university and by then was able to do my exams on a computer with the extra time. When I returned to school as a mature student I often did not use all or occasionally some of the extra time. Keep it anyways, better to have it and not need it then not have it. 
 
Also there are many famous people who have or had dyslexia. The list includes Richard Branson, Tom Cruise, Cher, Albert Einstein, Walt Disney, Keira Knightley, Jennifer Aniston, Henry Winkler and many more.
 
Henry Winkler even wrote a series of books about his experience growing up with dyslexia. The first was Niagara Falls, or Does It?. Which was done as a TV series in the UK, Hank Zipzer. The book and show really capture what it is like living with dyslexia. Well worth reading with her or watching it with her. 
 
If anyone wants to have a conversation I am happy to be a sounding board.

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